So, less than 2 hours left of 2013. I think it’s just appropriate that I should look back and think about everything that has happened, in my life that is, and not the world.
I’m not one to over analyse stuff so I’ll wrap it up quickly. I can divide the year into two parts. There’s the BFF (that’s Before FanFiction and not Best Friends Forever) – and the AFF (do I really have to spell it out?).
BFF a.k.a the first half of the year my life consisted on work and football (soccer to be specific). No I don’t play, but my kid does. Besides those two things there was reading. Not many memories, flipping through the images on my phone gets boring quickly. Football field after football field ad nauseam.
But then I had the “maybe I should write” epiphany and life took a new direction. First I started writing, the day before the summer vacation started, I published the first chapter to Sunsets. Suddenly people started reading my stuff and liking it. WTF? Here I was under the impression that I can’t write – after all, that’s the way my teachers portrayed it ~ 20 years ago. Holy crap, has it really been that long?
I’ve found out that I thoroughly enjoy writing – when I have the time to sit down and write. The five minutes here and ten there, not so much. I find it refreshing to take a blank page, or a new word document and start typing away. This from a person who hasn’t even kept a diary, can you believe it?
Through Fanfiction, I found a bunch of wonderfully nutty people, and suddenly I start feeling like myself again! I hadn’t even noticed that I had lost myself in the whole grownup/ motherhood thing. When thinking back, the last 7 years it’s like I’ve been on autopilot or something. I can’t quite put my finger on it, but I’m just really happy to have found myself again! And some people around the globe that I call my friends, you know who you are. Thank you!
Thank you 2013. It’s been a ride, let’s see what 2014 has to offer.
So, I got the blog up. Now there’s the actual part of blogging, which obviously does not come naturally for me. Luckily I saw this inspirational quote that I thought I’d share with you.
Don’t give up. That is way much easier said than done. I could tell you a thousand – well probably not that many, but still a lot – of things that I’ve given up on in my life. It’s the not giving up that seems to be the hard part.
You know the new year is approaching (49 hours left as I’m typing this) and although I usually make it my new years resolution to not make new years resolutions, I can’t help but think what I’ll do differently in 2014.
Maybe I’ll try with the not giving up. It could work in a lot of things. For example: if I would be persistent with trying to lose weight – in stead of giving up after a week or two I might succeed. Right?
I’m proud of myself as I’ve already succeeded in not giving up when my muse totally deserted me about a month back. I can tell you that it really is a bitch to sit down with the intention to write and then the words just don’t come. I thought about quitting my story totally, but realized that that’s not the solution. Quitting would bug me much more than the fact that my updates went from twice per week to once per week. After starting to write the Xmas story as spur of the moment kind of thing – you can find the story in the menu on the top of this page btw – the muse for Sunsets returned as well.
So as my new years resolution – even though I just said I wasn’t going to make any – I’m deciding to not give up on myself. I’m going to try to do something I had never ever imagined doing. I’ll tell you about it when I get my gameplan ready.